Just say

  This is how I feel whenever i'm with you everything is all about you when i'm thinking about you
Let me love you with all my heart , must you know I always love you until whenever
even someday if i'm and you broke up believe me I will and still love you ALWAYS ya :)
Believe me dear and remember that,okay :)

AFRAID :'(

   Udah 3 hari gue gak smsan sama rafif, gue udah coba telpon tapi hapenya gak aktif.
gue gatau harus ngapain lagi, gue cuma takut kalau besok-besok gue udh gak bisa smsan sm dia
hal yang paling gue takutin cuma 1 yaitu gue takut banget banget kejadian yg dulu terulang lagi hubungan gue sama dia GANTUNG, mana enak sih digantungin? gak mau-mau lagi gue ngerasain di gantungin udah cukup waktu itu aja, lo bayangin aja di gantungin selama 3 bulan buset dah selama 3 bulan gue bersabar tapi pas gue udh ngelewatin selama digantungin gue bisa ngerasain kebahagian yg jauh lebih baik sih #hahaziikkk
Oke forget it ... !!
   Gue bener-bener takut banget itu terjadi , ya allah semoga enggak deh AMIN .
please dong raf hapenya aktifin :'( , walaupun gue udh cerita ke lu tentang ketakutan gue dan lu bilang " ooo, tenang aja gak usah dipikirin " gue tetep takut raf , gue gak mau kehilangan lu untuk kadua kalinya #bukannya lebay tp ngomong apa adanya!
  Gue cuma mau hape lo aktif raaaaaaaaaf please I really need you and misss you :'(
please god help meeeeeee I just need a miracle from you right now , a miracle please come to me :'(
I just you know raf NOW... I REALLY NEED YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOOOOO............!!!!!
I hope you miss me too and need me too, oh ya do you ever thinking about me ? huh? I don't know-_-

Fill my heart :'-':

I tried to understand you but why don't you never understand me?
I tried to be patient when you make me upset.
I tried to contain his anger to you.
I just want you to know just what I want and how I feel.
I'm a woman who sometimes weakened by love, sometimes crying because of love, sometimes hurt because of love.
I want you to feel what I feel.
I'm a woman who needs the love and affection from you, and attention from you.
sometimes I'm tired of your attitude, but I'm trying to be patient and be patient.
I can only pray to god and I can only confide me in this blog.
I know you love me but you do not know if I love you more than you know and more than anything.
Sometimes when I'm alone, I thought of when I think of you and you just tear me out of both eyes.
I just want you to understand me, give more attention to me, because I really want attention from you.

"a little bit stronger"

  I miss the times when I was little. No problems,no boys, no drama, no love life,
just mommy's little girl in the middle of her teddy bears and a lot of toys.
  It's not the past that hurts, but the flashbacks that follows. Our generation
problem? That we all tried to grow up fast, but obviously, we regret it later.
    Yes, scrapped knees were easier to fix than broken hearts. ♡

Random ☹ ☺

  Hari ini gue ngirim sms ke rafif, tapi rafif balesnya ngeselin banget, disini gue sempet galau gimana gitu dan otomatis gue juga kesel pen marah , gue smsannya cuma bentar :( . mau liat texting-an gue sm rafif ? cmon to see my texting with him :D



Gue: Rafif Alifarhan ☹
Rafif: Iya ada apa kok sedih. ?
Gue: Gk papa cuma kangen dan pengen sms aja.
Rafif: Ooo
    *disitu gue kesel dia cuma bales ooo doang*
Gue: Parah banget blsnya cma ooo doang-_-
Rafif: I love you . soo much ... I always save you ... And I'm
       sorry if I mad / bad to you . I'm just have a bad day ..
       That's All
  *disini gue rada seneng tp rada gk seneng jga,bingung :/*
Rafif (again): Iya dah ... Kamu maunya di bales apa ?
    *pertanyaan ini gk gue bales*
Gue: Sorry late reply.
        Ya i know and understand, but wait, you say you
         have a bad day ? why ?
Rafif: Yeah , It's all about my family
     *sebenernya gue mau nnya kenapa sm keluarga? tp gue rada gk enak nnya nya-_-*
Gue: Oh ok i'm so sorry.
     *gue cma bisa bls gitu doang*
Rafif: That's all right



    Sms terakhir rafif gk gue bales, gue takut ganggu dia soalnya keliatannya dia lg badmood-_-
yaudah gue smsan sm dia segitu doang:( padahalkan gue masih KANGEN BANGET sm DIA ({}) :* :'(


> I MISS YOU SO MUCH
> I MUSS YOU SO DEEP
> I MISS YOU SO BAD
> I MISS YOU SO FAR
> I MISS YOU TERRIBLY
> I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU RIGHT NOW !!

Miss you so ☹

I just want you know, today, yesterday, every day, I miss you ☹
                          I fucking miss you
                         I miss you so much
                          I miss you so deep 
                        I really really miss you
                   I really missed you right now

I fucking miss you ☹

   Liburan telah tiba dan gue seneng banget akhirnya libur panjaaaaaang bisa relax dan enjoy

tapi ada gk enaknya juga selama tiga minggu liburan mungkin gue bakalan kangen banget sm rafif

gak bisa ketemu dia gak bisa melihat wajah manisnya dia dan gak bisa melihat senyum manisnya dia

 gak bisa melihat dia tersenyum ketika gue dan dia saling bertemu dan disaat dia menyapa gue

    hal yg paling gue kangenin sama dia yaitu ketika dia tersenyum melihat gue

tiga minggu bukan waktu yang singkat tapi itu cukup lama banget, gue bakal kangen banget sama dia

sehari gak bertemu dengan dia gue udah kangen sama dia apalagi tiga minggu gak kebayang berapa besar rasa kangen gue.

    gak akan kebayang selama tiga minggu gue gak bertemu dia pasti rasanya gak enak banget

mencoba supaya gak kangen tapi gak bisa bagaimana caranya untuk menghilangkan rasa kangen?

mungkin gue akan mikirin dia terus selama liburan dan hanya bisa sms'an sama dia

mungkin dengan gue sms'an sama dia bakal ngilangin rasa kangen walaupun cuma dikit

               You know raf ? I really really miss you so right now:(

day by day I began to feel the miss very deep and then I really missed you yesterday, today, tomorrow and maybe forever.

 

dreaming

         I want you to be my prince and I became your princess.
I want to live like in a fairy tale and like a prince and princess in the palace.

 

Harapanku ツ

         Setiap hari aku memikirkanmu disaat aku sedang melamun
dan aku memikirkan hal-hal yg tidak akan mungkin terjadi kepada kita
    tapi satu yg selalu aku pikirkan yaitu aku ingin selalu bersamamu
                 aku ingin kita bersama-sama dengan kamu
                    
Dalam hati aku , aku ingin selalu ada disamping kamu saat kamu membutuhkan aku
      setiap aku sedang disekolah dan melihat kamu aku ingin menyapa kamu
         aku ingin mengobrol dengan kamu seperti orang yg sedang pacaran
   tapi gk tau kenapa aku tidak bisa memberanikan diri untuk mendekati kamu
 aku selalu berharap kamu yg akan mendekati aku duluan kalau sedang disekolah
aku ingin kamu bukan sekedar pacar buat aku tapi bisa juga untuk menjadi teman aku

Tapi aku selalu berpikir dengan apa adanya hubungan kita sekarang pasti akan baik-baik saja
                 aku hanya bisa berharap hubungan kita bisa bertahan lama
tapi kalau takdir sudah berkata lain aku tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa hanya bisa pasrah
           jujur sampai saat ini aku masih mencintai kamu dan akan selalu cinta
                             you're my prince and i'm your princess 

GUARDIAN ANGEL

                                                  Bahagianya ku punyamu
                                                 berharganya bersamamau
                                                     selalu kan menjaga
                                                         semuanya ini
                                                      semoga kan abadi

                                                   Akhirnya ku temukan
                                                you're my guradian angel
                                                    ku mohon selamanya
                                                           seindah ini

                                                    Akhirnya ku miliki
                                                 your my guardian angel
                                                   terjawab segalanya
                                                      kau yg ku nanti
                                                      baby i love you
                                                          love you

                                                   Bahagianya ada kamu
                                                   berharganya cinta kamu
                                             selalu kan menjaga semuanya ini
                                                      semoga kan abadi

                                                 YOU'RE MY ANGEL

                                                  Akhirnya ku temukan
                                                  ku mohon selamanya
                                                         seindah ini
                                                    akhirnya ku miliki
                                               you're my guardian angel
                                                    terjawab segalanya
                                                      kau yg ku nanti
                                                      baby i love you

♥ KENANGAN ♥

                                              Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
                              Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
                               Akan tiada lagi kini tawa mu
                              Tuk hapuskan semua sepiku


                               Ada cerita tentang kau dan dia
                               Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
                        Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
                      Saat kita berduka dan saat kita tertawa


                                     Teringat disaat
                                Kita tertawa bersama
                          Ceritakan semua tentang kita

                                             SWEETEST MEMORIES ♥

HONESTLY !!

                                                GRATEFUL TO COULD GET YOU

                                                         GLAD TO HAVE YOU

                                                    DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU

                                                      I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
                                               I'M NOT GOING TO WASTE YOU

                                                     I WILL KEEP YOUR HEART


                                             I WILL TRY TO BE THE BEST FOR YOU

                                                         I MISS YOU SO MUCH 

                                                       I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU

All for you ☺

All images that it says 'I miss you' and 'I love you' just for you ☺

I LOVE MY RAFIF AND I MISS MY RAFIF ♥ :*

THIS IS REAL :'(

Gue: Rafiiiiif..... :(
Rafif: Iya ada apa sayang, maaf ya hape aku lagi dalam proses penyitaan , sama orang tua
Gue: Ha ?
        Kenapa bisa mau disita ?
Rafif: Ya sama orang tua , mau gimana lagi ?
Gue: Iya disitanya kenapa ?
Rafif; Gak tau
Gue: Yaaah :(
         what about me later ?
Rafif: I don't know
Gue: Disitanya lama ?
Rafif; Ya lumayan lah , kadang-kadang doang di kasihnya
Gue: Yaudah klo hapenya dikasih kekamu, kamu sms aku ya .
         Soalnya ada yg ditakutin nih:(
Rafif: Sekarang aja , cerita aja , apa yg kamu takutin ?
Gue: Klo hape kmu disitanya lama banget trus gk ada komunikasi sm kmu,aku takut kaya dulu lagi hubungannya gantung:'(
Rafif: Ooo , tenang , aja gak usah mikirin itu
Gue: Aaaaa tapi takut banget raf :(
Rafif: Ya makannya itu gak usah takut
Gue: Gk bisa ttp takut!!
         Mau ngejamin apa klo yg dulu gk akan terjadi lagi ?
Rafif: Ya bisa lah , aku udahan dulu ya .
          Love you so much....... Bigger than that...
Gue: Aaaa:(
         Love you too more than you


Aaaaaaaaaaa ya Allah bener-bener takut banget, berharap hal itu gk akan terjadi lagi , andaikan itu terjadi aaaaaa gk bisa kebayang:'( , OK I will try positive thinking and I will try always , I'm sure can do it . just patient and pray :)
Don't think about it again ya allah. OK I WILL TRY !!

Just love you Rafif ♥

       Maybe, I can not be a perfect girl for you but believe me if my love perfect for you dear :)

                                   I just love you and only you no one else
 
       Five words for you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ♥

                             My heart has been in the padlock and only you have the key :) 

                                               @rafifalifarhan
All the pictures that is just for you  ♥

Ada yg berubah dr dirinya

   Hari ini gue bener-bener kesel sama rafif, dia gk sms gue dua hari dan sms gue pun di cuekin , gue gatau ya dia ada pulsa atau gak , tapi intinya gue gak mau sms gue di CUEKIN sama dia ! gue BENCI di CUEKIN !! 
lagi-lagi tadi disekolah tumben-tumbenan dia gk senyum ke gue , sebenarnya ada apa sm dia ?
terus setiap gue ngucapin "good night" dan "good morning" ke dia pasti gk dibales, gk biasanya dia kaya gini sm gue. aaaa sebenrnya dia kenapaaaaaaaa ? :(
gue berfikir kayanya dia marah sama gue TAPI kalau dia marah sm gue apa salah gue ? kayanya gue gk pernah nyari masalah sm dia .
    Berharap banget hari ini dia sms gue atau ngebales sms gue, jujur gue gk betah gk smsan sehari aja sm dia, gue jga gatau kenapa tapi gue GAK BETAH !
apa mungkin dia udh gk sayang sm gue ? tapi enggak kok dia itu masih sayang sm gue,buktinya dua hari yg lalu gue sms dia dan gue nnya dia masih sayang sm gue atau gak dan dia jawab dia masih sayang sm gue dan dia gk akan ninggalin gue-_-
   Ya Allah ada apa sih sm dia ? aduh-_-" BINGUNG . Seharian ini gue mikirin dia terus .
please ada apa ini ? aaaaaaaa jadi pengen teriaaaaaaaaaaaak .
Raaaaaaaaaf sebenarnya kamu kenapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ? jangan buat aku BINGUNG :(
GUE BARU TAU SEKARANG KENAPA DIA GK BALES SMS, SOALNYA HAPE DIA DISITA ☹ :'( :'( (-̩̩-̩̩͡_-̩̩-̩̩͡)

Best Friend ♥

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER 

They are my best friend, I'll go where there's always them, they are part of my life.

 
                I really love them, I think he's my best friend.

 
Honestly, I do not want to lose them and do not want to leave them.

These photos of me with my best friend.

I love them♥

about my feelings

  Yesterday,today,tomorrow and forever I always miss him. sometimes i wanna story about my feel to him but..... sorry i could not say-_-

Honestly I always understood about him but I do not know whether he understands about my feelings too?

I always thought about it-_- I DON'T KNOW!!!

sometimes I like crying and upset because he don't understand about my feel :/

   I don't wanna break up with him because I REALLY LOVE HIM. I wanna have him forever and i don't wanna to lose him and i don't wanna him to leave me . I just with him not other people ! You should know I GRATEFUL can LOVING and HAVING him ♥ 

YOU KNOW ? TODAY OR TONIGHT I REALLY MISS HIM :(

I WANNA MEET HIM AND I WANNA TELL ALL MY FEELINGS TO HIM !!!